Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Summer Camp

So I have recently returned from a summer camp trip in Washington, WHICH WAS THE BEST. I got to see all of my friends from far away places, and a few from not so far away places. I got to hold so many babies (see picture below), which, happens to be one of my favorite things to do. I got to fellowship, pray, and sing with all my girls and everything about it was perfect.


Now I am home in California for a bit. I was very sad to leave Washington and all of my friends there but while I am home for this next month I am getting in as much beach and family as I can, while I can. Overall my trip just reminded me of how blessed I am to know such incredible people and to be able to call these people my greatest friends. Being able to hold little Kayla (above picture) and little Charlie (I'll have a picture up for her too) just reminded me of the preciousness of life. This sounds bland, but it was truly an amazing trip.

Also one of my friends posted this gem and I wanted to share



One thing that I learned at camp is that we all have so much to be happy about. And just because one, two, three things in your life suck doesn't outweigh the hundreds of things in your life that are good. From now on, I am making it a point to smile more, and to outwardly show my happiness. The sun keeps shining and so will I.

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Saturday, July 6, 2013

Review: Indie Game

I just watched this movie about an hour ago and feel the need already to write a review. This movie (documentary) was fascinating to me especially because both of my brothers and a few friends of theirs are programming a game together. The reason I loved this movie so much, is it shows that a very technical thing (programming) is a form of art and expression. Yes there is art in the game, but when combined with the story line and programming, is a masterpiece. 

The trailer:

Now this movie was created a few years back and now all of the games that were shown in the film all became very successful. The question I have, is it worth it? They say that creating games is their passion, yet it seems so stress filled and seems to slowly drive them mad. I can only assume that since I am no artist by my own standards, I don't really know what it is like to obsess over my work so perfectionally minded (yes that is a made up word but you get my point).

Also, it is amazing to me that these huge games are created by only a few people. Something so huge is created by two or three people working their tails off and going mad and in the end something really cool is created. I admire their hard work.

Nothing much else too say, just that I strongly recommend this movie and I hope everyone is enjoying their summer!

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Also I had In-N-Out today, I MISSED YOU SO MUCH CALIFORNIA.

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Review: The Probable Future

In order to describe and review things in an orderly fashion, first comes a summary of the plot, then comes thoughts, and after is reflection.

This is a story about a long line of women known as the Sparrows. The line started with a young child that came out of the woods in the year 1682, she did not speak any definite language and had only three possessions with her, a bell, a star necklace, and a silver compass. She had long dark hair and beautiful pale skin. The town of Unity named her Rebecca Sparrow because the sparrows would flock around her when she went into the woods. One day, a man saw her walk over broken glass and not bat an eye despite her bleeding feet. Rumors began to circulate and soon all of the boys in the town began to shoot arrows at her for fun and were astonished because she did not let out any screams. It appeared as though Rebecca Sparrow could not feel pain. The washerwoman that had taken her in passed and she inherited the estate (not much of an estate just a shack, land, and the hourglass lake). She was accused to be a witch by a jealous woman (won't say why) and was dawned with garments with stones sewn in the hems and thrown into the lake. From then her line lived on through her daughter all the way to modern times to Jenny and her daughter Stella. 

All of the Sparrow women were born in March and, on their 13th birthday, received a gift based off of their temperament, the following is a list with each (this isn't a spoiler it says it pretty early in the novel).

Rebecca Sparrow could not feel physical pain
Sarah Sparrow did not need to sleep
Rosemary Sparrow could run very fast
Leonie Sparrow did not get burned by fire
Constance Sparrow could stay underwater without air
Sophie Sparrow could see through the dark
Hannah Sparrow could find anything that had been lost
Coral Sparrow could predict the weather
Elisabeth Sparrow could turn anything into a meal
Amelia Sparrow could ease childbirth with the touch of her hand
Elinor Sparrow could smell a lie
Jenny Sparrow could see what people dreamed
Stella Sparrow could see how someone would die

The story is mainly about the last three, when the youngest receives her gift she saw how a woman would be murdered and desperately asked her father to tell the police what would happen, which he did, he was just really drunk and not taken seriously. When the murder actually happens the police go strait to her father, Will Avery, and he is the primary suspect due to his knowledge of how the crime happened before it happened. And the story is about how Stella and her mom go back to their hometown and revisit their history while the story of the case is on in the background.

That is as much background and summary I can give. Now onto thoughts. Well, I thought it was one of the best books I have ever read. The character development is flawless, in the beginning I found myself hating almost every character but as the story progressed and as the people grew and matured I fell in love with each and every one of them. 

One thing to note that I wasn't expecting, was how little the actual plot mattered. It wasn't a chase to find the murderer or a stressful courtroom setting, it was just something that happened and caused the Sparrow women to revisit their past and renew broken bonds. This story focuses on very little things that seem to symbolize a lot. For example, the impossibility of a blue rose, the pain that lies in the depth of the hourglass lake where Rebecca Sparrow drowned so long ago. This is a story about love, family, and history and how we as individuals choose to define those aspects in our own lives. We can choose to ignore any one of the three but in its absence we are still defined. 

Drawing from here
For the reflection I wanted to discuss loss. Loss doesn't play a huge role in the novel but it is still there. When someone passes away or chooses not to be a part of your life anymore there is a grieving process. And the way the book describes this, for me, is as follows. When you lose someone, such a deep sadness follows, and this sadness arises when you think, feel, see, or hear anything that is beautiful. Because anything beautiful will remind us of something that was beautiful yet is no longer. And it is ok to be sad for awhile, but it is also ok to to take the sadness and choose to grow wiser, and choose to strengthen yourself, as the characters in the novel did. 

I would recommend this book to anyone and everyone, it is beautifully written and is a easy read as well (not too long). Even though it took me six months to finally finish (between the philosophy and psychology reading) it was still worth it. Now that it is summer I will be reading a lot more, my next journey shall be The Hobbit. It may take me awhile to read so please have no expectations of a review soon.

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"Above the stone wall, there stood one of the wild peach trees, possibly descended from one that had been set adrift long ago in the shipwreck, so close to sore. Or perhaps this tree had grown from a love token, tossed aside when it was no longer needed. The air itself smelled of peaches, here and all over Unity; when the breeze came up, petals fell like snow. If a person didn't move, if she was completely still, the petals streaming over her, catching in the hem of her clothes, in the strands of her hair, white as snow, quiet as snow, silent and fleeting and drifting down from above to cover her and carry her home" 
--Alive Hoffman, The Probable Future (315-316).


Monday, June 24, 2013

On the End of the Year

More Like Post-End of the Year

I have been home for just over a week now and have pretty mixed feelings about it. Not gonna lie, I miss Seattle a lot and this morning it is cloudy and wet here in California and it makes me happy. But then again, I am exstatic to be home. I do have an opportunity to go to washington for the next three weeks and stay with friends and my grandma AND possibly go to summer camp, but I need to stay and continue to look for a job and be with my family. So I will probably miss out on camp counseling this year but that will be ok.

Finals were painful and I gained about 10 pounds in the last two weeks.. I almost decided not to even write my PSYC paper because the prompt was disgustingly difficult and disproportional to the level of the class. Also I was fairly checked out the second half of the quarter and just ready for summer/time off with my family. So I ended up with straight B+'s all across which is fine but I could have done better. And as far as the weight I have decided to not be upset about it and still love my body, yes I am working out and working to be healthy now that I am home but I refuse to put myself down.

I have already gotten a sunburn on my back unfortunately but I am slightly tanner already (not saying much since I am paper white ha). But the beach is just as beautiful as I left it. Also I have already hung out with a few friends from high school and across the board everyone is doing really well and enjoyed their first year of college.

My year in summary goes as follows: A rough start but then I met Aubrey and Izzy. Thats pretty much the best thing I can think of. Sadly Aubrey is leaving us for CSU next year but I wish her very well in her endeavors and Izzy is my roommate next year so I am beyond excited for that!

I apologize for not having one cool thing to talk about, I have been in summer mode so my memory is shotty. But I shall have many interesting posts to come! 

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Friday, June 7, 2013

Music for Finals

Welp, it is that time of the quarter. Unfortunately I happen to have an extensive amount of finals this quarter, 3 papers as well as 2 final quizzes (noncumulative THANKFULLY) and I just had a final group presentation yesterday which went very well. I feel like this is how college finals are supposed to be but my past teachers didn't do much for finals. Luckily there is a giant prize when I am done, I GET TO GO HOME (,: I miss home so much and have had major home sickness this whole year.

And this summer is going to be amazing, my friends and I are planning a road/camping trip which I am so pumped for. I will hopefully have a job throughout the summer. In particular I am applying for a nanny position that would be perfect. I have all the experience and just in general would love to work with kids but we shall see! Also if I get this job I might be able to still go to my summer camp, if everything works out. The job wouldn't interfere with camp it is just a matter of paying for the plane ticket there and back.

Anyways on to things more important, music. Lately I have been listening to Lorde, a 16 year old New Zealander and she is just amazing. Very calming music and she as a really cool style.



Also Regina Specktor, always


But mostly Lorde.. I don't have a bunch of music to share but I do advise you to look up her EP. Last day of work as well today, slowly everything is wrapping up. Time to get back to my psyc reading, have put it off a little too long today.

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Monday, May 13, 2013

On Going to Grandma's and Being Older

This post is a mainly happy and a little sad post. First of all, I had the most incredible pre-birthday/makeshift mother's day weekend ever. I was really sad to have to spend my birthday away from home but so grateful to get to spend the weekend with my grandma and aunt eating HOMEMADE FOOD (BLESS) and cake and ice cream the ENTIRE TIME while watching HGTV (something I really only do with family as dorky as that sounds and yes, house hunters is one of my all-time favorite TV shows). 

My grandma has a GORGEOUS beach cabin up on Whidbey Island (or whimbley as Sabrina would say :)). It has an immense amount of sentimental value for me since I have spent almost every summer there since the first year I was born. It is an adorable little cabin that my grandparents built themselves in the late 1960's (I believe, don't quote me on that). My mom still remembers being about 8 and handing nails to my grandpa while he hammered on the house. I still remember summers repainting the deck and going clamming with my mom and brothers. So it was awesome to get to spend some weekends there but also is a little sad because my family isn't there with me. Also a little sad because my grandma is pretty sick and half the reason I go up there is to help run errands and fix stuff around the house.

Also the train ride here was damn incredible, it goes along the coast from Seattle to Mukilteo where I get to take the ferry (which also has so much sentimental value for me).

A picture from the train (sorry if the weird effect throws you off, I am trying to hide how terrible my phone's camera is)

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And a picture from the ferry
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The trip was pretty awesome in general and I always enjoy taking it, seeing the city growing smaller behind me is one of the greatest feelings ever, I am definitely not a city girl. I am a suburbia queen for sure.

The beach house was astonishingly beautiful when I was there. It was a little cloudy but sunny most of the time and we got a beautiful shot of the olympic mountains and got to see the first batch of cruise ships of the season going up to Alaska and a ton of giant container ships going past. The smell of salt water and boat gas is probably one of my favorite smells as weird as that sounds, if someone made a candle out of that, I would definitely buy it.

Here are a few more pictures of my views around the island, again they are all pretty boring scenic pictures (which I actually hate a lot) but I am just trying to give you an idea of what it looks like.


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As you can imagine, this was a great break from being in the city.

Now onto birthday matters. This is my first birthday away from home, and it sucks a little bit. I had an amazing birthday last year (spent the first minutes of it being paraded around my old work's parking lot by some of my favorite people). And even though it was on mother's day last year, it was still awesome in all ways. I had to work, but I am weird and actually had fun at work because most of my good friends at the time were my coworkers (I worked too much) and that night I had an amazing dinner with my family.

I really wish I could do that again but this year is pretty makeshift and low key. After spending the morning sobbing because my mom sent me an extremely heartfelt email because she is the greatest person ever, I am editing a paper to turn in later then going out to dinner at our exquisite cafeteria (HAHA) then watching the season finale of Survivor (which I am actually really excited for) with my friends. It is a Monday so we can't do anything crazy, but I am really excited about it.

Also I made a new playlist which I think is my best yet even though it isn't getting as much attention as my previous ones. I love this playlist so much, I listen to it nonstop. Check it out if you got some spare minutes:



I am glad to be a bit older for now, still really excited to be home with family and old friends. Only five more weeks till I am there :)

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Sunday, May 5, 2013

Sunny in Seattle

Today it was an absolutely beautiful sunny day here in Seattle. After sleeping a substantial amount, my friends and I decided to bus down to the market to enjoy the heat. I don't really have much to say, I just wanted to share a few pictures that show Seattle's true beauty.





The rest of the week is supposed to be just as beautiful and even though it makes me impatient for the actual summer in California, I will enjoy it while I can.

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