It has been quite a relaxing winter break, being back in the California with no work or school. But at the same time I feel this bittersweetness of being home and also of finishing the year off. This has probably been the year of my "turning point" into adulthood. I struggled with identity and went through some hard times coming out on top having conquered quite a bit of depression and anxiety. After this year I feel the most myself, the most me, and boy, does that feel good. I gained and then lost my "Freshman Fifteen" and I feel more healthy than ever. I stopped eating meat and I have more energy than ever and I feel so much more alive. I have had the amazing opportunity to see some incredible bands live and music has really become a thing that I enjoy so much. I have made new friends in Seattle and have started building these incredible relationships with a few incredible people who I really admire and inspire me so much.
All in all I am so proud of who I have become and everything I have conquered and I am SO PUMPED for this upcoming year, I know it will be full of laughter and late night study nights and hikes into the Washington wild and friendship and love and so much of everything.
One of my friends said the following (quite beautifully might I add), "I'm having this realization that my entire life up until now was just fluff, just filler. Sure, I learned and grew up and made friends but it was all for what's happening now. Now, I'm living somewhere I love where I can go out and just breathe in the beauty of nature. I'm studying something that I have such a strong passion for and I am surrounded by people with that same passion. I've made friends that make me feel more appreciated and loved than I ever have. I have a kitten who doesn't seem like much and is a total asshole but who comforts me and keeps me company when I need it most. I have a family who I love with my whole being. I am becoming a better person, with a whole new inspiration burning inside of me that I've never let come to the surface before. I am so thankful for this past year, 2013 was the hardest year of my life, but also the most important. 2014 has so much in store for me, I can't wait."
We are all growing up, now everything means more, its harder, but everything is so much more important to me now, my relationships, my studies, my family. It's like someone has turned on a light and I see everything with clarity now.
And looking forward to this next year, here are a few of my Resolutions for 2014 :) (They start off simple and stupid but that is because it took me longer to think out the really important ones)
All in all I am so proud of who I have become and everything I have conquered and I am SO PUMPED for this upcoming year, I know it will be full of laughter and late night study nights and hikes into the Washington wild and friendship and love and so much of everything.
One of my friends said the following (quite beautifully might I add), "I'm having this realization that my entire life up until now was just fluff, just filler. Sure, I learned and grew up and made friends but it was all for what's happening now. Now, I'm living somewhere I love where I can go out and just breathe in the beauty of nature. I'm studying something that I have such a strong passion for and I am surrounded by people with that same passion. I've made friends that make me feel more appreciated and loved than I ever have. I have a kitten who doesn't seem like much and is a total asshole but who comforts me and keeps me company when I need it most. I have a family who I love with my whole being. I am becoming a better person, with a whole new inspiration burning inside of me that I've never let come to the surface before. I am so thankful for this past year, 2013 was the hardest year of my life, but also the most important. 2014 has so much in store for me, I can't wait."
We are all growing up, now everything means more, its harder, but everything is so much more important to me now, my relationships, my studies, my family. It's like someone has turned on a light and I see everything with clarity now.
And looking forward to this next year, here are a few of my Resolutions for 2014 :) (They start off simple and stupid but that is because it took me longer to think out the really important ones)
1. NO SODA
2. Teach myself how to sing
3. Teach myself to draw (summer class?)
4. Get into my Word more, learn more about my religion and spirituality
5.Work a few more hours and buy myself nice things (aka concert tickets and trips)
6. PROMOTE AND PRACTICE SELF LOVE, SELF ACTUALIZATION, AND SELF CONFIDENCE
7. Continue to not let work and anxiety stop me from doing things that I love/want to do
8. Seek nature, love nature, and nurture nature
9. Travel a bit more, see new places and meet new people
10. Build on my current friendships and appreciate people more and be more grateful for these people.
I hope you all have amazing holiday breaks and lets all look forward to an incredible incoming year!
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2. Teach myself how to sing
3. Teach myself to draw (summer class?)
4. Get into my Word more, learn more about my religion and spirituality
5.Work a few more hours and buy myself nice things (aka concert tickets and trips)
6. PROMOTE AND PRACTICE SELF LOVE, SELF ACTUALIZATION, AND SELF CONFIDENCE
7. Continue to not let work and anxiety stop me from doing things that I love/want to do
8. Seek nature, love nature, and nurture nature
9. Travel a bit more, see new places and meet new people
10. Build on my current friendships and appreciate people more and be more grateful for these people.
I hope you all have amazing holiday breaks and lets all look forward to an incredible incoming year!
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